tuesday blues

As I listen to Howie day’s Collide and the sound of heavy rain from my window, I put my feet up on the wall, my back rested on the bed. Thoughts then came into my mind.

There are so many things to be thankful for. One is, to have a job. Being a nurse is difficult. It’s like saying, I have to do well and there’s no room for mistakes. Assertiveness, kindness, perseverance are the keys to be a fine health care provider. A profound self-sacrifice is essential because a lot of saving lives will take place.

Day by day, I imagine myself interacting with patients and showing empathy, providing their needs and giving them special care that an ordinary person cannot put forward. It’s not easy. Being in the hospital brings back a lot of painful memories. I used to accompany my grandfather when he had chemotherapy for his lung Cancer; seeing him on the lazy boy hooked up with tubes, his face trying to be comfortable and strong was heartbreaking. Visiting my other grandfather was also a part of the painful memories; holding his hand and saying “hi lolo”, while he exerts effort to give me a hand grip even when experiencing general weakness. Years after, it was time for me to nurse my grandmother, who was not an easy patient after all. She was irritable and temperamental but despite her attitude, I always find her with an exceptional character. I gave her more care. I nursed her from top to bottom. It was I who gave her a good bath after she was pronounced dead. It was so much pain to tolerate. These are just some of my sad stories. I may have a fragile heart but I set foot for the good reasons.

I have my own frustrations and doubts. I’m not positive but I am prepared, I’m good but not the best, I’m not brilliant but very capable. I have a heart. I cannot cure but I care.

Life is short, make it all worthwhile.

farewell summer!

Summer is fading away but its heat has always been with us all along.

The warm puff of air is making us want to soak and grab a cold drink.

A nightfall dip is what my cousins thought of.

So, there they go...

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Summer is my best friend; I cannot resist its beauty. It soothes me completely.

Thank you GOD for my fantastic summer

and for the people I shared fun moments with.

Good times and bad are worth dreaming on for next year’s quest.

Adios verano.

crazy morning

Melissa and myself almost went crazy out of boredom. We decided to take a walk across our place and simply played like all kids do.

A fun moment in life is for free! It's what you make it. :)

No road is long with good company.

She's the one who comes in my door when the whole world has gone out for me.

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.

A true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg even if you're half-cracked.

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Friends are the sunshine of life.

We have been friends together in sunshine and in shade.

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh!" he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you."

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Grief can take care of itself, but to get the full value of joy you must have somebody to divide it with.

And of course, my own sleepy piglet, ALI. :)

Remembering Bora

Sharing some beautiful photos taken at Boracay. I miss this paradise.

God's perfect gift for the sun lovers.

Summer's perfect company--- FAMILY.

Breath-taking sundown.

There goes my bubbly father.

and me! :)

With my pretty sister, Rica. I miss her and the fun things we do together.



up, up and away!



Love every moment under the SUN.

It's the best season of the year.

Wishing all a wonderful summer!

~Ina~

Marta's special day

Marta didn't sleep the night before her Recognition Day.

She becomes sleepless when overly excited, that's how she is.

Special Child

You weren't like other children,
And God was well aware,
You'd need a caring family,
With love enough to share.

And so He sent you to us,
And much to our surprise,
You haven't been a challenge,
But a blessing in disguise.

You winning smiles and laughter,
The pleasures you impart,
Far outweigh your special needs,
And melt the coldest heart.

We're proud that we've been chosen,
To help you learn and grow,
The joy that you have brought us,
Is more than you can know.

A precious gift from Heaven,
A treasure from above,
A child who's taught us many things,

But most of all - "Real Love".



Marta with PAPA.

Marta was given recognition for best in music and art,
special child award and J.E.S.U.S Kids' achiever award.
We are all so proud of her.



Steven brings her bag all the time when she steps out from the class. Sweet!
She admires Dion. He keeps on telling marta "Hi markie, hi markie, hi markie" until marta tells him "Hi lagi Dion". (hahahaha!)



Marta's classmates, a bunch of unique children.
(School Administrator on the right lowermost of the photo.)

They are all so sweet and talented. Seeing their happy faces melt your heart.

~Ina~

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Here’s another lowly moment. I assume that I need time to wind down and worry a little less. There are just too much in the world today to handle. Feeling bare and alone yet loaded with anxiety is how I am feeling. I don’t know what might have caused all these to settle in my mind. I have to free myself from all unworthy schemes that’s hanging on me. I need to fly, figuratively.

There are instances in our lives that we find ourselves at the crossroads and the choices we make shall define the rest of our days. Facing the unknown, most of us choose to turn around and go back. The pain of going through it alone is frightening yet we awaken ourselves from the bravery inside us. From there, we find the courage to go on. It’s when we're tested that we truly discover who we are and who we can possibly be.

There are too many moments in our lives that we can point to and say, ‘That's when it all changed.’ Moments in our lives aren’t eternal. Change is inevitable, they come and go. That’s the truth- it’s crueler than any lie. So let’s learn acceptance from within to save ourselves from intense pain.

Every day, I am searching for things that make me happy and hoping to find answers to my questions. I know that the answers I’m looking for are closer than I think. They’re in my heart and to the people I love.

I agree to what John F. Kennedy said that, ‘the courage of life is a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy. A man does what he must in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures; and that is the basis of all morality.’

Never lose hope. Things that are meant for you almost always embrace you in the end.

For as long as you have love in your heart, you know how it feels to be alive.

~Ina~